Perilous

I come today with a Saddened heart. There was indeed a rough spot in our relationship, and it certainly hurts. Admittedly, I know that things will not be exactly the same for a little while if ever. I am hoping however, they will. It will take some time I know, but I believe it will return in time. No one said that having a girl, or being a Master was easy, and I can verify this. It is, however, much deeper than any relationship I have ever been in. It is not hard to see why those in the know, so to speak, prefer it much. I know I do. Now then, on to My girl. My girl is very unique. It is no secret I do not do well with stupid people, and I see poor spelling a non desirable trait. Though it may be perhaps wrong, I have no qualms about thinking less of people that can not spell. It is maybe not their fault, but it is a fault I do not wish to deal with. There have been some that can not spell. I feel my girl is very intelligent. There are very few people that I would consider on the same level mentally as I am but thankfully, my Aylen is one of them. She is a clever mix of intellect and silliness. I absolutely love it. Most of all, as hard as she has had things in life, it makes me smile to see her be silly because it shows me that she is comfortable and secure. Sometimes when I am work, all I have to do is to use an Aylenism, like "I R fishing" and it instantly makes me smile. I have never been so happy or excited to go home for lunch. I must also say, that getting up in the morning is difficult. all I want to do is hold her all day and spend the time with her. The girl is also very pretty, but as we all know, beauty can fade with youth, but providing one does not lose one's mind, they will always have that. My plan is to keep my girl mine forever. She and I share a lot of the same interests and goals, and I anticipate many good times :) until next time, be well.. and btw. happy anniversary my girl..


Master

My thoughts on..

my thoughts.
I am Master Nyyrikki. I am 35, and own a kajira. the thoughts in this blog are my own thoughts. you may or may not agree with them, that is of no concern to me. nevertheless, they are my thoughts. Today is sunday, and I am ready to not be at work any longer. as strange as it sounds for a Gorean Master, I have found exactly what I had hoped for, a kajira to love, cherish, and be my companion. Not an easy task here on earth. Every Master is different, but to find a compatible slave is important. Why would any Master wish to have a slave that he did not care for? True, I suppose that does not matter, and I also suppose it depends on what your goals and motivations are, but with me, I always sought the best of all worlds. I wanted my kajira to be everything to me. Today has been so slow that has given me much time to think, and obviously to write. after going home to lunch and having to forcibly rip myself away from my girl, I returned to work sad. Strangely enough, I miss her. I say strangely because some would say that Masters are not supposed to have such feelings. I believe this is poppycock. Often times, it takes more to show emotion then it does to hide it. I fear very little in anything,including showing that I have feelings and that I am indeed, human. I have had some accuse me of being too gorean, not being human, or heartless. those are people that did not get deep in to my heart, so they recieved treatment that was becoming of a slave. Oddly enough, they whined about being treated as such. Perhaps they were not ready to play by the rules, I do not know. At any rate, I am very happy with my Aylen, and I do not think it could be a better fit. So long for now,
be well,
LN