reflections

today is the 11 month anniversary of me and aylen's relationship. I honestly can say I never thought it would get to this stage. I am very pleased to see it. While in the car today, I started thinking about it, and realized my longest relationships were ones where I was not around the person much. Almost as if those would have failed much sooner. Aylen made the comment "but they were not slaves" yes, I told her, that is true, but I do not even go on that thought. I know that we are both in this relationship because we choose to be, not because of any lifestyle. What she may not realize is that there is more to that statement then she realizes.the truth of the matter is, in any relationship, m/s or otherwise, if the people do not get along, the relationship wont last long. whereas it maybe true from a slave point of view that she is bound to me (puns intended, lol), If I did not care for her, love her, enjoy her company, etc, she would not still be here. Now then , that said, from a human point of view, I love her very much and I could care less what we are doing, but i genuinely love spending time with her. why would anyone be in a relationship with someone they were not passionate about? a reasonable question. Unfortunately, I have heard that as the scenario around me as of late. I refuse to do so. I refuse to be in a relationship that is just lukewarm. It is not how I operate. It is a life choice I made a long time ago. I refuse to stay anywhere where I am passionless or emotionless. That is why to me that the statement that aylen and i have been together for 11 months is profound to me. Any issues that have come up I believe that we have already addressed, and what there is left is a loving and caring relationship that is fun to be in and enjoy. It may be far from perfect, but I think it is wonderful. I feel that the future holds wonderful things.*smiles*
happy anniversary my love,
Spencer

life is good!

the time rolls on, and it is time for another blog. I must admit it never ceases to amaze me the level things have reached. So many things aylen says or does just makes me smile. or the things i say are sometimes peppered with things she says. sadly though, it kills me when she assumes the worst. It is not easy, i know to change some one's frame of mind after so many years. I suppose when you have been conditioned a certain way your entire life that you always assume the worst. I shall, however, to continue to show her differently. she will not get away from me that easily. I plan on having her around for a very long time.on a different front, I have long anticipated 2 things. 1 the weather changing from cold back warm, and clash of the titans opening! I had wondered how epic the movie would be if it were done in modern day movie making. we shall find out tomorrow. since my last post, they have announced blizzcon in Anaheim, and aylen and I are planning on going.. I look forward to the road trip. it will be fun to make the drive again. we are driving instead of flying. It will definitely be an adventure. on that note, I am going to conclude this one. there is not too much to say here, just that I am in love with a wonderful woman and that I am happy. 'nuff said.