A discussion with a "friend"

As Aylen mentioned in her blog, we had a gentleman in our guild that was supposed to be a friend. That said, I would never `treat a friend like that. As Aylen did, I shall call him can. he was a guild officer, and one I thought I could trust. One thing I have always been big on was keeping my word. Mind you I am human and I do make mistakes, but in positions of high standing, I expect the same quality out of my officers as I would expect from my self. He stated I was just too intense. Perhaps it is true , I am intense. However, I choose to call it passionate. it is not just wow that am passionate about though, it is life in general. I feel it is the only way to live life. Life without passion is only existence.One has to care to truly live. He stated he thought I was being too harsh. Is it harsh to hold my officers to the light I hold myself? perhaps, but with that, if I can not do so, what is the point in having them officers to begin with?

On a different wow front, I am very close to getting the number 1 belt in my class for my character. That would very possibly change my numbers up a bit *grins*. That is something I am glad for. In what seems like a never ending quest for better and better gear, admittedly I sometimes get discouraged.I suppose this is part of the plan, and I also know that my damage per second is "OK" for a regular dungeon, and yes, I know I do better on bosses, but it is discouraging to see my numbers low, especially since I know I can do better. Though the true tests come with raid buffs and bigger bosses, it is discouraging at times.

Also , I did come off of my weekend with Aylen. I decided to play hooky because, quite frankly, I did not trust the roads. The time was way too short, but it seems like that is always the case. we watched 4 movies. All were ones I enjoyed. some would consider them children's movies, but I like to be entertained in a lightened way, most of the time. Great movies are awesome, especially when one can share them with loved ones!

Work wise, I decided I really needed those days off. I just found out about a negative review I got because of this one call in particular. I always think the guy that grades me is a bit too harsh on me. Maybe I am just biased.Perhaps he is biased. The sad thing is, I can't really argue with him on his points because... dare I say it? he is right. I just wish he did not have to be so mean spirited about things though. This really rocks me when I know I messed up and he is right. Perhaps I am looking at it all wrong.

Now then the most important part. That is of my Aylen. Without sounding too cliched, My home life is perfect. I suppose perfect is all in one's definition thereof, but this is how I see it. I have a bright girl, who is silly at times, very loving, caring and compassionate. We share many of the same interests, and whereas she may not share all of my interests, she is certainly willing to humor me. Sometimes this is to her detriment, other times to her advantage. I have exposed to all sorts of things, some of which I doubt she would have been ever exposed to without me. Unlike anyone else, I actually genuinely feel that she has my best interests at heart. It is a foreign concept to me. All this, and I not only find her attractive but I can tell she loves me as I love her. She did make a comment to me earlier to the effect that she did not think she told me enough. I responded , much the same way she did to me once upon a time. You see? I feel love in every soft kiss, every caress, every time she holds me and does not wish for me to leave her(God and goddess know how I hate to do so). It is hard for me to explain I suppose, how deep the love goes, but it is undoubtedly there, in every gaze that we gaze upon each other. So, in Conclusion, after 7 months, everything is still as I had hoped for, but only in my dreams was it a reality. *smiles*
LN